Kategori: Life story
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Chilly relations
TRIGGER warning – physical violence, verbal threats. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Giselle: I feel Guinevere and Bianca leaving me. They’re tired, can’t take anymore. Were they real? I always wonder that when the other two go. I’m the newest one. I was created in…
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Nobody like you
TRIGGER warning – death, grief. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere, Bianca, Giselle Eric is so still. I lean down, put my ear against his chest and listen for a heartbeat. Is it on the left or right? I always forget which is which. I…
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The Night
HUGE TRIGGER warning. S***nism, child sexual abuse, water torture, death. Only read this if you are sure you can handle it and have some support afterwards. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere: I’m crestfallen after trying to speak with Samantha. Sniveling I approach her siblings,…
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Angry man, the Avenger
TRIGGER warning – Forced nudity, child sexual abuse, physical violence. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere Tall grass is swaying in front of a big wooden barn. Behind the barn I see fields upon fields until the horizon. On the other side of the barn…
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Efforts to escape
TRIGGER warning – Forced sedation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. The bedroom door slam open inwardly. Eric’s father steps in, staring us down: ”No escaping today!” Eric calmly walks out, followed by me and the other children. If we can we’ll run when we’re outdoors,…
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Obedience
TRIGGER warning. Programming, talk of abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. 5 years old Bianca: I see the breakfast laid out before us, I feel the chair I’m seated on. I’m leaning against a wooden table. I can still see how the sunlight streamed in…
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Chasing clouds
Trigger warning – references to child sexual abuse This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere, 3-4 years old: I’m spinning in circles on the graveled yard. Head thrown back, searching the sky: only whisps of clouds. Too thin, transparent! God couldn’t sit on one of those…
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Mornings gone missing
Trigger warning – child abuse Bianca, 3-6 years old ”I’m so grateful you’re bringing her along”, my mother says blissfully. ”I can’t believe you have the energy for it, with all the children of your own”. Eric’s mother looks delighted hearing this. ”You know what they say – it takes a village to raise a…
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Heroes
Trigger warning – child sexual abuse, drugs This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere, around 5 years old: ”They didn’t even get our clothes off! Only my pants, and I’m putting them on right now!” Philip, one of my older cousins, was performing a victory dance…
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Footprints
Lord you said that once I decided to follow You, We would walk side by side through life; But when I needed You the most, I saw only one set of footprints in the sand. The Lord replied: ”I love You and I would never leave You”. During your times of trial and suffering, When…
Writing our heart out 