Etikett: childhood
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Sherwood Forest
TRIGGER warning – cult abuse, morbid jealousy. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Princess, 6 years old: Under the green foliage, everything is peaceful. Snow is melting on the ground and from the trees fall drops of ice cold water. It’s spring. I inhale sweet, crisp…
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Baby
TRIGGER warning – references to sexual abuse, mind control, manipulations. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Ball is bouncing Up, up, to the sides So high Ball is happy! It bounces, it’s happy I am the ball, flying I am happy! Baby’s feelings when she sees…
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Life of the Normal Self
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. I sit on the porch beside my Grandfather, considering green lawns and flowerbeds. ”You think the bad memories hurt”, he ruminates, sipping a little on an amber, firey liquid. ”You’ll see. When you’re my age the bad, the scary memories…
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Obedience
TRIGGER warning. Programming, talk of abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. 5 years old Bianca: I see the breakfast laid out before us, I feel the chair I’m seated on. I’m leaning against a wooden table. I can still see how the sunlight streamed in…
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Those who love thunder
I had to wait in order to write this post. As of late, all the days have been too sunny. In order to revisit this part of the past I need earthshaking rumbles and crazy lightnings flying everywhere. Today is a good day. The first memory I have of really good bad weather is from…
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Underneath the kitchen table
One of my first memories is looking up at the underside of the kitchen table. I know every white painted corner, every piece of metal and bolt by heart. The legs of the table are like guardian pillars, marking the entrance to my kingdom. If I sit very still and keep quiet, I am safe here.…
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