Etikett: DID
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Cherry blossoms in my heart
TRIGGER warning – violent assault, threats, child sexual abuse, manipulation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, 6 years old: A soft wind caresses my face and cherry petals carried by it swirl everywhere. I skip to catch the petals, as I walk down the street…
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Whispers from lost days
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, teenager: High summer and not a cloud in the sky. A soft breeze sways the branches of the trees as we walk slowly down the old familiar road. It’s such a beautiful day, but I feel empty. I’m taking…
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Tiger Cub
TRIGGER warning – bondage, forced sedation, threats and physical violence. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca: It was so vivid. I was in my teens and I wrote about it in in my diary. I dreamed I found a cardboard box in our living room.…
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Caged Bird
TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, cult abuse, mind control, manipulation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, Guinevere, Giselle and some who have yet to introduce themselves: If this is Greece We’re the chorus in a tragedy Oh tell us Princess How did he freeze…
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House of Night
TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, cult abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere: It’s a solemn looking house, old stone towering so high it blocks out the sun. You’re standing on the first step of stairs leading up to an ornamented door. It’s cold…
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Circles
TRIGGER warning – cult abuse, cult information. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Link to previous post: Bianca, almost 6 years old: First time I stood on the porch outside Elijah’s house, I felt a little nervous – I had never played with him outside kindergarten…
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Baby
TRIGGER warning – references to sexual abuse, mind control, manipulations. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Ball is bouncing Up, up, to the sides So high Ball is happy! It bounces, it’s happy I am the ball, flying I am happy! Baby’s feelings when she sees…
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Magical children
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Giselle, 4 1/2 years old: ”Bianca, say hello to James.” I wave my right hand. ”What’s wrong with her?” The boy wearing the name James asks. Timothy ushers me forward. ”She has a Silent Self. That’s the next step for…
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Only his Princess
BIG TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, physical abuse, torture, programming. This blog post could be very triggering. I choose to publish it since it details how an abuser creates his own alter within a dissociative child. One could argue this knowledge should not be spread. Is it better the methods continue to be secretly…
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Christmas Day
BIG TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse (not explicit), rape, sleeping draughts, suicide attempt. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, 5 years old: Camilla opens the door when Mother and I knock on it. She is overjoyed: ”It’s Day today!” She heralds, arms flung wide…
Writing our heart out 