Etikett: DID
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Off the hook
BIG TRIGGER warning – child trafficking, learning to kill animals. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, 5 years old: ”Can’t you lie for our sake?” Eric is upset. ”You always lie, about everything! Why can’t you lie about this?” He’s keeping himself together while tears…
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After
TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, trafficking, cult abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere, 5 years old: ”If someone asks whether you belong to The Society or The Family, you say The Family”, Eric’s mother instructs me. ”What is The Family?” I ask. We’re…
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Before
TRIGGER warning – cult abuse, dissociation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere and Giselle, 5 years old: It was a bleak, sad autumn. The fun and beautiful things shone all the more brightly against the backdrop of mournfulness. Out of all of us, Bianca was…
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Giselle
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. My best memory is how I got my name. I’ve replayed it in my mind a million times. I was seven years old and I was crying when I rushed into the kitchen. Eric was washing the dishes and asked…
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Witness
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca: ”Can we have another cassette tape, please?” Some of Eric’s father’s music cassette’s are so worn they’ve broken and now he’s throwing them away. ”Remember to throw the cassette in the bin, I can’t have you littering the neighborhood.”…
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Chilly relations
TRIGGER warning – physical violence, verbal threats. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Giselle: I feel Guinevere and Bianca leaving me. They’re tired, can’t take anymore. Were they real? I always wonder that when the other two go. I’m the newest one. I was created in…
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The Night
HUGE TRIGGER warning. S***nism, child sexual abuse, water torture, death. Only read this if you are sure you can handle it and have some support afterwards. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere: I’m crestfallen after trying to speak with Samantha. Sniveling I approach her siblings,…
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Angry man, the Avenger
TRIGGER warning – Forced nudity, child sexual abuse, physical violence. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere Tall grass is swaying in front of a big wooden barn. Behind the barn I see fields upon fields until the horizon. On the other side of the barn…
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Efforts to escape
TRIGGER warning – Forced sedation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. The bedroom door slam open inwardly. Eric’s father steps in, staring us down: ”No escaping today!” Eric calmly walks out, followed by me and the other children. If we can we’ll run when we’re outdoors,…
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Obedience
TRIGGER warning. Programming, talk of abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. 5 years old Bianca: I see the breakfast laid out before us, I feel the chair I’m seated on. I’m leaning against a wooden table. I can still see how the sunlight streamed in…
Writing our heart out 