Etikett: lifestory
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Cherry blossoms in my heart
TRIGGER warning – violent assault, threats, child sexual abuse, manipulation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, 6 years old: A soft wind caresses my face and cherry petals carried by it swirl everywhere. I skip to catch the petals, as I walk down the street…
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Tiger Cub
TRIGGER warning – bondage, forced sedation, threats and physical violence. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca: It was so vivid. I was in my teens and I wrote about it in in my diary. I dreamed I found a cardboard box in our living room.…
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Sherwood Forest
TRIGGER warning – cult abuse, morbid jealousy. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Princess, 6 years old: Under the green foliage, everything is peaceful. Snow is melting on the ground and from the trees fall drops of ice cold water. It’s spring. I inhale sweet, crisp…
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House of Night
TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, cult abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Guinevere: It’s a solemn looking house, old stone towering so high it blocks out the sun. You’re standing on the first step of stairs leading up to an ornamented door. It’s cold…
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Circles
TRIGGER warning – cult abuse, cult information. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Link to previous post: Bianca, almost 6 years old: First time I stood on the porch outside Elijah’s house, I felt a little nervous – I had never played with him outside kindergarten…
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Baby
TRIGGER warning – references to sexual abuse, mind control, manipulations. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Ball is bouncing Up, up, to the sides So high Ball is happy! It bounces, it’s happy I am the ball, flying I am happy! Baby’s feelings when she sees…
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Magical children
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Giselle, 4 1/2 years old: ”Bianca, say hello to James.” I wave my right hand. ”What’s wrong with her?” The boy wearing the name James asks. Timothy ushers me forward. ”She has a Silent Self. That’s the next step for…
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Only his Princess
BIG TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, physical abuse, torture, programming. This blog post could be very triggering. I choose to publish it since it details how an abuser creates his own alter within a dissociative child. One could argue this knowledge should not be spread. Is it better the methods continue to be secretly…
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Life of the Normal Self
This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. I sit on the porch beside my Grandfather, considering green lawns and flowerbeds. ”You think the bad memories hurt”, he ruminates, sipping a little on an amber, firey liquid. ”You’ll see. When you’re my age the bad, the scary memories…
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Christmas Day
BIG TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse (not explicit), rape, sleeping draughts, suicide attempt. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, 5 years old: Camilla opens the door when Mother and I knock on it. She is overjoyed: ”It’s Day today!” She heralds, arms flung wide…
Writing our heart out 