Etikett: programming
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Caged Bird
TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, cult abuse, mind control, manipulation. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. Bianca, Guinevere, Giselle and some who have yet to introduce themselves: If this is Greece We’re the chorus in a tragedy Oh tell us Princess How did he freeze…
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Only his Princess
BIG TRIGGER warning – child sexual abuse, physical abuse, torture, programming. This blog post could be very triggering. I choose to publish it since it details how an abuser creates his own alter within a dissociative child. One could argue this knowledge should not be spread. Is it better the methods continue to be secretly…
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Obedience
TRIGGER warning. Programming, talk of abuse. This is out of context unless the blog has been read in a chronological order. 5 years old Bianca: I see the breakfast laid out before us, I feel the chair I’m seated on. I’m leaning against a wooden table. I can still see how the sunlight streamed in…
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Mornings gone missing
Trigger warning – child abuse Bianca, 3-6 years old ”I’m so grateful you’re bringing her along”, my mother says blissfully. ”I can’t believe you have the energy for it, with all the children of your own”. Eric’s mother looks delighted hearing this. ”You know what they say – it takes a village to raise a…
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Body triggers for switching alter
HUMONGOUS TRIGGER WARNING – torture, child sexual abuse I’ve wanted to write about this for a long time. If you were abused by the same cult as me – or a similar one – this could be vital information for you. I’m starting to be more co-conscious with alters that I have. One thing I’ve…
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Wild Dusk
Day and night, day and night, day and night. Night and day, night and day, night and day. Day and night… I’m balancing on the stone ledge of a flowerbed, singing those words over and over. It’s a monotonous melody and I feel slightly hypnotized. I no longer hear what other people tell me (”Stop…
Writing our heart out 